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Hey there, I'm here for support on the battle of eating disorders. Since I was younger, I've always been over weight. Now that I look back, I wasn't thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat fat, just thick.. now i'm huge like a cow. since the birth of my daughter, i've become a whopper. :( But when i'm depressed, I can't eat at all... I'll go days without eating and i lose weight. Im so proud of myself at those moments, its almost like i wont let go what is bothering me, just so i wont eat!!! i love how it feels to be in control of my hunger, and for the pounds to leave my body. Then when i'm over the issue, i feel like i cant stop eating and food is always on my mind.. haunting me.. to eat or not to eat and calorie counting. I've decided to take control over this problem.. and get away from food. Here i hope to find more like me to help me through this. This is my final time to attempt something to become the master of my body. I want to be thin, Ive done all the diets, they never work, i workout, i just went through the police academy.. looots of working out, and left with only a few pounds lost. I'm tired of being the fat girl, I'm sick of feeling so ugly, im tired of trying to "diet" and end up over eating.. i wan't to give it all up, and find the me inside. im so uncomfortable in my body and im sick of feeling guilty when i eat, yet end up eating more than what i wanted anyways to begin with! So now im going to stop eating, limit calories and get the me that i know is inside. All support is welcome. i've been known to juice fast, drink only water and eat fruits, and not eat at all.. and then eat way to much and suffer the guilt :(

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